...AND SHE'S BACK!!!!

Hello All! I have not died and disappeared off the face of this Earth contrary to what most of you may have believed. My google account was hacked into and taken over, loosing all my information and my blogging details to go with it - what a NIGHTMARE! At long last I have regained access into my original account and thank goodness because I've realised now that I seriously need this blog as an outlet in my life. I have missed all my readers and their stories! So here I am...

Ok, so I have a lot to catch up on - I will have to do it over a bit of time but here it is for now...

I travelled overseas to teach English in Thailand and I experienced some of the loneliest times in my life. Initially I missed the first boyfriend I mentioned, my family, my friends and English speaking people. The time alone was good though. It forced me to face the pain and loneliness head on. I was visited by rebound boyfriend when I was over there who declared his undying love for me and as nice a guy as he was and as much as I wanted it to work - the chemistry just wasn't there and I had to let him down again.

I was able to come home feeling healed for the most-part and like I had rediscovered my personality, character and the essence of who I am. I have since returned home and in less than two months after my return, I met up with a friend of my ex-boyfriend's and after not too long we were together. He is older than I am, which brings its fair share of hurdles. We have told the ex, so that's all sorted and he seems to be OK with it. I have been told by many people that I need someone older than me because of my maturity and strong personality. Age has never been an issue for me though, I see it as I look among the wide variety of age of my friends, it ranges from 13 - 67. I feel blessed to have the ability to see the best in people and love them for what they stand for and are passionate about rather than seeing their limitations.

So that's where I am now and, like I say, I will continue to update you in bits and pieces, which will probably be short if I am to do it often. I look forward to reading your stories, meeting new friends and hopefully get in touch with some of my old blogging buddies ;-) Have a good day.

Major changes

I am so ashamed at having not written in so long. My apologies, however, I think you should know there have been some MAJOR changes in my life. Uh, OK - since I last wrote, I've been retrenched - which is good - I was planning on travelling to the States but my visa was denied. I was so traumatised by this but its since then that I've realised it obviously wasn't the plan for me. I've broken up with the divine, perfect guy I was going out with - Dave because I've decided I'm actually not in a place where I can be in another relationship right now and I'm desperate to travel and I really don't think that after being together for a month or two we can now launch into a long-distance relationship for a year. He's really hurting. He didn't want it at all but he was amazing about it. He was far more understanding about my decision than my ex. He didn't fight me at all on it, which was weird.

Anyway - I've got a job in Thailand and I've got a visa (at last) I leave very soon and am so excited for this new adventure in my life. Anyways, I thought I would have a farewell get-together for all my friends, family etc to say cheers and I now invited both my exes. Now before you shoot me down for doing something that is simply 'not done ever', give me a little credit...I know these guys really well. I was sure neither of them would come... I had to invite them cause I really wanted to say good bye so I couldn't not invite them and I couldn't choose one...Their reasons for not coming were: (Dave) "It would be awkward" and (ex) "It would be wrong". Please. Get a backbone! So, I had a lovely get-together with family, friends and a few randoms that just rocked up and really enjoyed my night.

So that's a quick catchup from me and in hopefully my next post will be from Thailand... mmm. In closing, I'll leave you with a question...I have a crush - it's a guy I am sure hasn't noticed me in that way as yet and we're related by marriage (sounds dodgy, I know but if you saw this guy - you'd understand). He is so different from any guy I've ever been with. He's outgoing, confident, fun, adventurous and like I said, so different. He also has a girlfriend - the first girl since I've known him (about four years) that he's fallen in love with. Obviously, I haven't done anything as I'm very opposed to cheating etc. But what do you do in this situation when ignoring it just makes it nag some more....? I'd love to hear your takes on it... Until next time, have an awesome day x